Goodbye 2014 and Hello 2015

It's been really wild! Yes, so wild.

Despite of all the wildness, I have learnt. So much! Started of 'still grieving' of my late grandma earlier this year and I have to admit that that is the most hardest thing I have went through so far, in life! Still not easy for me now. To be honest, I have a picture of my grandma that I've pasted on my wall so I can still see her beautiful face everyday. That's not easy, somehow I make it through Alhamdulillah. Along the way, I have visited few places this year like Malacca, Penang OMG, I LOVE PENANG so much. Everything seems to be perfect over there. Someday, I would really like to stay working in Penang. I love the food, the place and above of all, I love the people. I also went to Bandung somewhere in February (if im not mistaken) and yes, I love Bandung too. It's just a little bit too crowded for me but still, love it.

My birthday party has been really memorable this year since this is my last year celebrating birthday with my beloved Austin colleagues, still it's not easy though. My friends made a video compiling my pictures with everybody and that's the best gift ever after my owl gifts and my customade Owl's cake. I cried, alot, sadly not only me have cried, almost everybody cried on that day (Lol). I have worked at Austin Heights Schools since August 2011 until July 2014 and that's almost 3 years. Of course I have been so close to my dear students and colleagues and I have loved them so much. However, due to so many problem that I have encountered with the school management, I've chose to leave. Sad! But I've got to do what I've got to do.

Moving on to Fairview, seems that it's not working out and not gonna work anyway. I've chose to come back to my previous school but they only want me back by January. Of course I cannot wait for 3 months without proper job. So I've browsed through the wholelot Johore Bahru seeking for a job. Thank goodness, Marlborough College Malaysia have accepted me! Alhamdulillah, so I started there somewhere in October. It was really fun and I have met so many wonderful people there! The only thing is I am not a teacher there. Just a teaching assistant. However, my teacher, Mihaela Marcovici is so awesome. She makes me feel wanted and always make me feel very important in the artroom. Once a while, she let me handle some art lessons. I can never thank enough to her. She is such an amazing person I have ever met. Sadly, I've changed my mind again and, I've turned to Tenby Schools at Setia Eco Gardens. It was so hard. I started to love everybody in Marlborough and to my surprise, my fellow teaching assistants make a surprise farewell party for me. It was a grande party, with helium balloons tied to the chair, sash, goodies bag with alphabet 'W' on it, dinner and wonderful gift. Of course, it was really memorable moment for me too.

Half-month ago, I have started working at Tenby! So far so effing good. I've been given a laptop for our own use (of course for the sake of the lesson!) And I am looking forward to see all the students once they come back from the holidays!

I don't have any new year's resolutions as it's never work for me! I dont mind what's my 2015 gonna be, I had enough of 2014 so bring it on!

Anyway, There are so many people I've met and there are so many people that I wanna thank to but it will be never enough to just mention them here.

With this opportunity, on the new year's eve I would like to say thank you to everybody just to let you know that I am always thankful for being given a chance to meet you and it's such an honour to have you in my life! I am not who I am today, without YOU!

Thank You & Happy New Year 2015

Wafi

Re re re re repeat

Berat bahu memandang, berat lagi bahu memikul. Haaa, tu diahhh. Jangan memain, sekali dibaginya peribahasa perbidalan melayu lama.

Kihkihkih.

Kalau bahasa orang putih, tajuk dia "the heavier the eyes see, the heavier the shoulders hold". Kau ada?

Well, I know that it's been a while since my last post. Yes, I did promised that I will post more frequent but due to so many life changing and re-adaptability I have to settle whatever prior to me first.

So I've been telling that I am leaving Austin Heights for Fairview International School right? Well it's turn up to be un-amazing. I kinda fell sick and Ive last for a month there. The management kinda sucks too. Just like Austin Heights. So I gave up on them and I quit the job and being jobless for a month.

After a while, I've got a job at Marlborough College Malaysia. It was really amazing! And how international it is totally incomparable with the typical International Schools in JB. Their standard is way up high and very professional. I certainly have enjoyed my time there and it was the best journey of my working place so far. Even though for only two months, I've learnt like amazingly a lot.

However, I was not a teacher at Marlborough. So I kinda look up for another and I've got into Tenby Schools which located at Setia Eco Gardens, Gelang Patah. Kinda close to Marlborough too actually. And I can't event compare these two schools either. Both are almost at the same level. They are damn good and well-established schools i would say.

It took me a while to make a decision and finally I've decided to leave Marlborough for Tenby and that was the hardest decision I've ever made.

My journey at Marlborough just like no others. I have to say that I am still missing Austin Heights (obviously because of my ex-colleagues and students, not at all because of the management), and now I am gonna miss Marlborough. The kids are all amazing, even though almost 90% are foreigners (most Whites), but they've treated me like I was a part of them and I have to say that I love them so much.

And, right this moment I'm typing out this 'not-so-long' paragraph I am officially jobless but it wont be so long because I'm gonna start my work as a Teacher at Tenby next Tuesday which is like 4 more days to go. Au revoir Marlborough College Malaysia and hello Tenby.

I hope that I have made a very wise decision and wish me luck!

go run run run run im gonna stay right here

remember our time together?

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yes, i miss that a lot!

Esok Hari Last

Kan aku cakap nak berhenti kerja kan?

Nampaknya esok merupakan hari last aku mengajar kat Austin Heights ni.
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Ya rabb, sedih, sayu pulak hati ni.

First Day of Being 25th - Happy Birthday Wafi

Ahem..ahem..

Firstoff, Happy 25th Birthday to me. Not sure if I am getting older or younger. Age seems like just a number to me (nak sedapkan hati je ni).

I have to thanks so many people for wishing me my birthday and those people with effort to beautifulize my bday. Awwwwww! I cant thank you enough for that.

Now I would like to tell you the story that happened during my celebration day. Few months back, ive been told that there are going to be no celebration for me this year. And im fine with that. On my bday, most of my inner circle did not wish me, properly, at all. And before the school ends, we gathered in a room for bday wishes to another colleague whod shared the same bday date with me. I am still fine. No matter what. Well i wont request for that eh. Endup, dismissed and everyone seems to pack and "leave" to go back home.

Suddenly, one of my colleagues kinda asked me a favour to change her spare tyre on her car. So my pleasure to help until we reached the lobby, suddenly I was blindfolded, and being pushed in a car. Argh, i knew it! Miahaha. And they nailed that beautifully. So they drove the car for quite sometimes and we reached the location. Being dragged into a place which i dont know, and once they lift my blinder, VOILAHH we are all in a restaurant and suddenly theyve put a very large hat on my head with the theme from Alice in Wonderland and ive become the Mad Hatter. Some became the rabbit, the cat and theyve put the playing cards scatterly on the dining table. It was lovely and it was really a wonderland-like.

After few while, here comes the cake! It was a very huge-sized owl cake and we sang after, then weve cut it into tiny pieces. It was a very nice cake tho despite of fighting emotion of not cutting the owl because it was so damn beautiful and cute.

My friends prepared so many present for me and I felt pempered so much with whatever happening around. 1st present is a beautiful "music player" cap. 2nd present is two minions figurine. 3rd is a mix of owl stuff (calculator, passport cover) and Totoro stuff (VCD, keychain). 4th is a rattan stick (hehehe). 5th is a wonderful bagpack and an owl keychain on it, awwww. And not to forget, that ive recieved the most wonderful card ever as it is a custom-made card and it is so owlsomely beautiful.

The utmost special gift that ive ever recieved in my whole entire life is a video presentation for me, about me to be clear. And it was made by my fellow friends. After present-giving, all of us sitting at one side and they place a laptop at the center and we watched the video together. It was a compilation of my video together with all other teachers and after half of the video, ive broke into tears and i just couldnt hold it anymore longer. With audio effects of few songs make it even more harder to digest. After half of the video, there are the compilation of greeting wishes from my friends and to be honest, i couldnt read much im struggle with mixed feeling passing through the emotion. To see and real all of those beautiful messages had obviously touched my heart wholeheartedly. After the video ended, i turn my face around and ive seeb alot of people also shedding tears and it was a very very emotional moment for all of us. It was a total silent after the video and i couldnt thank the  enough for whatever they have done to me.

I have never thought that i have touched so many hearts and how close they can be to me whether they are my local friends or my foreigner friends. I felt showered and pempered by all of the things that they have done to me. I wish and i hope, our friendship will stay on forever, wherever i may go.

I bet, soon farewell will be the next emotional thing for me to get through but i will. I wish i could stay but i am still thinking and depending on God's fate now.

Well, shed the tears and hold my head up high. I should be proud that i am still given a chance to celebrate my 25th bday and showered with all the wonderful wishes from all my friends and families. God bless you guys!

Last but not least, HB Awafi!

*post in English didedikasikan kepada kawan2 sekolah yang tak reti cakap bahasa melayu. Hikhikhik. Sayang awak semua!

Tak reti nak letak tajuk apa

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jadi cikgu kat sekolah lain, sebab sekolah aku (reason biar aku pendam sendiri).

YAY! Nanti aku upload gambo sekolah baru okay.

Im feeling 22

Waklu 22, dah 25 kot. Okay, first of all, age is just a number. Get it?

Orang cakap, 25th is the best year that could even happen in a person's life. Psychologically, strength peaks around 25 years of age. Haa, nampak tak permainan dia? It's a freaking quarter a century, nampak x? Nobody lives a century anymore these days. Kan?

Walau apa pun yang berlaku, hidup memang perlu diteruskan. Terutamanya bila ramai orang yang disayangi dah tak ada disisi. Yang paling dirasai adalah kehilangan arwah atok. Tiap kali mimpi pasal dia, bila bangun tidur mesti macam nak hempas sesuatu. Remuk betul hati ni. Tapi at least itu adalah mimpi yang gembira, sebab masa tu jelah masih dapat dengar hilai tawa dia, suara dia, gurau senda dia, rasa macam taknak bangun dah dari mimpi itu. It could be the best dream in my life. And her lost, ruin every single things in my life. Her lost, breaks me and i am in a pieces now. Not much of direction and I don't even care to find one.

Tak dapat nak bayangkan hari raya nanti macam mana.

Anyway, being 25th is not a big deal at all. And despite of so many things, I dont even care a damn thing to feel my 25th. Just for the sake of number, and getting older. Hehehehe. I wont say older, I would say matured.

Walau apa pun yang terjadi dan bakal terjadi, jangan mengalah. Langsung! Tidak sama sekali! Sebab ada banyak lagi sebab untuk kita semua berada di dunia ini.

Kan?

#selamat harijadiwafi

Tiga Tahun Mengajor

Orang cakap cikgu ini umpama lilin. Siapa yang cakap tu meh sini aku nak jotos kepala dia. Kau ingat cikgu ni tak ada kerja lain ke asik nak menjadi lilin kepada anak2 nusa bangsa?

Sebenarnya memang ya pun. Aku tak pernah cakap kerja cikgu ni senang. Sebab, (aku dah bilang ni banyak kali, aku nak bilang lagi) we teachers dealing with souls, not machines. Kalau machine rosak kau campak jelah memana. Kalau soul? Jiwa? Macam mana? Mana kau nak campak?

Nanti esok lusa budak2 tu jadi tah apa2, kau jugak nanti yang diingati sebagai perosaknya.

Thank God, aku masih bekerja dekat Austin tu. Walaupun penat nak mati Ya Rabb. Tapi dengan dengan dorongan anak2 murid aku, aku jadi kuat, tabah nak mengharungi sekolah yang sistemnya tah apa2.

Jadi kepada semua orang seantero dunia, letakkan tangan anda di dada, ingatilah guru2, cikgu2 yang menjadikan anda berjaya. Ingatilah jasa mereka yang paling agung, at least youve grown in such manners. *kecuali Bill Gates, Mark Zuckenbergursusahnakeja tu* Dorang tu memang dilahirkan genius, ni kalau cakap pun gagap2, kerja sekolah pun tak reti nak buat, ada hati?

Walau apa pun yang terjadi, di mana pun aku berada,

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aku memang bersyukur akhirnya aku berjaya jadi pendidik.

Kalau dulu time belajar sekolah, setiap tahun kena update file pelajar, bahagian cita-cita tu, semua cita-cita aku selalu berubah, tapi yang wajib ada mesti "Cikgu". Ya, aku nak jadi cikgu sejak kecil lagi. Alhamdulillah tercapai dan ramai kawan2 aku jugak yang dapat jadi cikgu.

Terima Kasih tak terhingga kepada cikgu-cikgu di:

Tadika Sinaran, Bandar Baru UDA

Sekolah Temenggong Abdul Rahman (1)

SMK Bandar Baru UDA, Johor Bahru

Cosmopoint JB

Tanpa kalian, mungkin aku tak akan berada di sini *kesat air mata*

Semalam

Semalam i call you, you tak answer, you kata you keluar pergi dinner

Semalam masa tengah potong rambut

Dari belakang nampak macam botak

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Adakah ini tanda penuaan?

Selamat menyambut ulangtahun yang ke-25 Wafi. Kau tu dah tua. Bawak2 la sedor diri sikit.

*lari pergi kedai jamu nak beli pelebat rambut dengan SKII.

Meh nak citer sikit.

*situasi dalam Jusco, semasa sedang beratur nak bayor*

Aku : .........
An auntie : ching chong cheng chang
Aku : *senyum sambil aw* ohhh
An auntie : ching chong ching chong
Aku : Auntie, saya melayu maa. Saya tak faham. Sorry. *sambil mcm sengih*
An auntie : hoh, lu nampak macam cina lor. Manyak hensem. Kita pun tak ada hensem mcm lu.

Bebual2 sampai la turn aku nak bayor.

Nampak tak permainan dia di situ? Okay kalau tak pahan silakab abaikab penulisan ini.